Today this journey felt hard. My body is feeling the wrath of my workouts (I still need to start lifting weights and jump out of my cardio comfort zone) and I wanted to eat endless amounts of chocolate allll day. I indulged in a couple of pieces of dark chocolate but deep down I wanted to be laying underneath a chocolate fountain surrounded by brownies and cupcakes. But alas, I did not give into the craving because I know it is simply my addicted brain playing tricks on me. I need to form positive habits (going to the gym regularly, regulating my social media times, going to bed at a reasonable hour every night) but I also want to get in the habit of telling myself that when I crave the sweets it is the triggers in my brain doing this. I do not NEED chocolate or sweets. I can get sweetness from other sources that are so much less taxing on the body. Some people may think my thinking is extreme and I am setting myself up for failure because I am limiting myself but come the end of the day I am an all or nothing kind of person….especially when I feel passionate about something. I will push myself more and more even if it feels awful. (Processed) Sugar is the devil and I know this. I am not saying I won’t ever slip. I am almost sure I will but I want to try like hell to rewire my brain to crave healthier items and to just make that my normal. I want to get to the place where I just overlook sweets. I want to finish a meal and not even think I need something sweet…..or at least something unnaturally sweet.
My thoughts today haven’t been super clear and I am beat tired. Working out has been awesome but sleeping at night has been a little altered because of it. I think I am still on a workout high when I go to bed so it takes me forever to fall asleep. Plus I am not even in my own bed (I am dog/house sitting for a friend) so there is another factor there. Since my thoughts are kind of blurry I am going to leave this one short but brainstorm about what I want to write about over the weekend. Make sure to tune in 😊