Day 299 Question 299:
If you could ask God one question, what would it be?
I went to Google and typed in thought provoking questions to search and the first question that slapped me right in the face was this one. If I could ask God one question, what would it be? So many people would say, “You don’t believe in God so that is not a valid question to even pose.” I never said I didn’t believe in God…I have said I don’t know complete truth about what I have learned in regards to God but I do believe God is what I want him to be. God is an important entity in my life. God is nothing simple….at least that is what I choose to believe.
I guess if I were to ask God a question it would be: Why do people’s convictions differ so greatly? There is so much I don’t understand or know about this world and so many times I catch myself wondering why I fall into a category so different from the masses. So many people have this solid and sure belief in God and the story of the Bible and I have so many questions (well, I also don’t know much about the context of the Bible). I guess to explain my question, I am curious why I have doubts and questions and wonders about what God is and about the ultimate truth and why other people believe whole-heartedly without question. If God does “exist” in the sense that many people portray him, I would want to know why I have a difficult time believing the story of the Bible and believing in his existence and his purpose.
Being able to ask God only one question would be an almost impossible task. If I were to ask him more than one question, that would prove my belief in him….isn’t the thought just so strange? I guess I just want to know the purpose of our differences….is there a purpose? Are we so different because we are all supposed to learn…to be challenged???
As I sit here I keep thinking about people I know and even those I don’t know. I do find religion to sometimes be an uncomfortable topic to discuss because of my not knowing what I really think or believe. I do, however, want to know how some people just know?? For my friends that are reading right here right now….if you believe in God…why do you believe? What makes you so sure? I do not ask in any demeaning manner…I ask to learn how people develop such convictions. Was there something that happened to you that made you just know that his existence is real? I have now answered 299 questions and I just want to ask those that read this one question that is constantly lingering in my mind. Well, actually there are different questions lingering in my mind. Because of my being unsure and having doubts about God and the Bible, do you look down upon me? What does that make you feel about me? Do you feel that one day I will come around and accept God into my life? Does it bother you that I may never accept God the same way you do…or maybe not at all? Do you believe that it is these religious differences that have caused such mass chaos and violence in the world?
I am always thinking about where we have come from and why we are here. I study creation and I study evolution and I never feel an absolute connection to either because all I truly know is the Now! I love the ideas of both but without the experience I am unsure. My curiosity gets the best of me sometimes and I am always itching to hear other people’s thought process….sometimes I laugh on the inside of how angry I am able to make people because of all of my questioning. I don’t enjoy people’s anger but I find amusement that those that call themselves devout Christians can get so upset at others that may think and feel differently(actions like that seem very UN-Christian like to me). I strive to do good in this world and treat people well because there are no other options….I guess I am just asking how others just know how it all began and believe in this entity that they have not had personal experience with (or have they?). I am open to hear anyone and I am always intrigued by my experiences. I have found that it is my senses that give me the answers more than my thoughts….I go with what feels natural in the moment. There is possibility that one day I may believe in God….at least in the sense that the majority believes in him but there is also the possibility that I may never see God in that light and choose to make him what I believe he was/is. Is that wrong? Am I going to Hell because of this? I would really love some dialogue here and some words of wisdom if anyone has any to share. I do not ask anything out of disrespect….my mind is this continual cycle and if I don’t ever ask the questions I will never have an understanding of others.