Day 357 Question 357:

How is your life different than what you were expecting?

 Growing up I was never really sure how my life was going to turn out.  I never really had a vision in my head.  I always heard about getting older and going to college then getting married and settling down and having lots of babies.  I never could picture my life that way….I never really could picture my life any certain way.  I may have had glimpses of what I thought or hoped would happen but never really a set life plan.  When asked what I wanted to be when I grow up I always said I wanted to be a reporter.  I have loved to write since I was very young.  I loved the ability to be so creative with words and being able to make a story out of almost anything.

 Here it is 2013 and I am single with no children.  I am not bothered by this at all because I never felt a connection to needing those things.  If they happen that is great but I never felt a need or a longing for them.  My purpose in life is to help others….to give as much as I can even if it is small.  I have to share something that changed my entire day yesterday.  A blog reader of mine had friend requested me on Facebook a little while back and nothing really came of it….I am sometimes horrible about staying in touch on Facebook.  I checked my Facebook in the morning yesterday to find that this young man (21 years old) had left a comment on my wall.  This is what it said:

i’m so sorry to bug you but…my god if there ever was a sense of relief and tranquility…your face and name would define it…lol your blog and even the presence of relation you have with many problems is awe inspiring..you make a kid who feels lost and broken…just try to get back on the horse of life and remain focused on all prosperities….i want to thank you a bunch i know it sounds very wild coming from a complete stranger..but…in all honesty you have really dried my tears and made a smirk appear in my face once again…thanks a bunch..i am forever indebted too you 🙂

I responded by telling him that that was hands down the most beautiful compliment I have ever received and his words made me feeling like I was serving my life’s purpose.  We both responded to each other one more time and this is what was said:

Him: Thank You for the extended hand …sometimes when sh** hits the fan ya’know the silence of the occurring just makes you feel like there is no good in this cruel world…you feel like an adult in a high school..ya’know you don’t belong..you ask why,why,why?!?!?..and in that you cry because no one answers the why?!?!?!…I know this is a long thanks but when you have a mental battle with yourself and you ask why?!?!…and from the dark you hear…this is why..and this is how you can overcome that…..it’s like the best deep breath you can ever have….trust me i may sound lol at times a little archaic and very dialogued lol but it’s a way too show an emotion with enough description and less tears (sorry to put you on the spot but i feel you deserve some recognition from somewhere lol Thank You) P.S. thanks for sharing a piece of a new cheese i have never tried before i think it’s called your life’s purpose it is not cheesy to fulfill a blessing placed upon you…it is very admirable of you to share it with people who have no direction.

Me:  Everyone has a direction….we just get a little lost sometimes It means the world to me that I have been able to guide you if even just a little bit. I spent a lot of time wandering myself and my path was filled with a lot of sadness and self-loathing….it took a lot of courage and stepping out of my comfort zones to get to where I am today. Not every day will be perfect or even good but everyday has something to offer. Your words made this day worth every second Thank you again!

Never did I think that I would be someone to help guide another person.  I don’t know what troubles this young man might have or what exactly he may be going through but my words have helped him to know that everything will be ok.  To know that I have helped him (a perfect stranger many states away) is the most amazingly overwhelming feeling in the world.  I could have stayed in a state of depression or self-loathing but I decided that I HAD to change….I NEEDED to change.  I shared my journey of all of my change in this blog and I have made new friends from all over the world and I have helped people through their struggles….because they are able to feel less alone.  I may not be a reporter but I am still writing and I know I will because it is my deep rooted love.  It is what keeps me sane.  I read a quote the other day and of course the author’s name has completely left my mind but it said: “The two most important days of your life are the day you are born and the day you figure out why.”  One year ago I would have thought nothing of that quote but now I know that once you figure out your purpose and your why….life will be forever changed.