Day 310 Question 310:

Does everything in life happen for a reason?

Sometimes I feel like I have that face that makes everyone just want to pour out all of their complaints to me.  It seems as of lately that no one is happy and I can’t wrap my brain around it.  I guess a lot of people know I am non-confrontational so it makes it much easier.  I have some stresses and not every day is perfect but I sometimes wonder if people are able to hear themselves…hear the constant bitching and whining about how life is not giving them what they want and how awful everything is.  I think my viewing this and feeling so differently is what has kept me in my own personal bubble.  I have difficulty because I am so self-aware that I do everything I can to not blame my problems on a bunch of outside sources.  I believe that life happens naturally…even if we don’t like the direction it heads or the outcomes that occur.  I have grown to see my failures as opportunities and my mistakes as lessons.  I am the only person responsible for my life and my actions so when things go wrong I don’t see it as fair to blame everyone and everything else.  I try my hardest to bring awareness of my words and actions and I focus on not complaining and throwing the burden on other people.  I make sure to bring out as much positivity in every day because I know the benefits I reap from doing that.  Yes, I realize there are things out of our control but when listening to a lot of people, I can’t help but hear all of the steps that could have been taken on their behalf to make the situation better (and I will admit to being just as guilty sometimes).  I wonder if some people have just become accustomed to complaining that they don’t even realize they are doing it….as if it has become a natural thing in their daily lives.

I do not have all of the answers to life’s great mysteries.  I do believe that there is a natural progression in life and I guess that would mean the same thing as everything happening for a reason.  I spent a lot of my life playing the blame game and realized that no one was to blame but me.  It was not McDonalds that had made me fat back in the day….it was my choice to shovel the garbage in my mouth.  My ex-boyfriend expected me to pay for everything and I went into deep debt about 5 years ago (thank goodness I am back on my feet)….that was not his fault…it was mine because I allowed it to happen and chose to foot every single bill.  I have found that since I turned my thought process around and started reiterating to myself what was important and everything I wanted that life started progressing in a much more positive way.  Once I gave up the complaining and the pity-party and started telling myself how worthy I am and focused on the hard work and dedication things started to naturally fall in my lap.  Everything started happening naturally because I accepted my emotions and experiences for what they were…even if I didn’t always like them.  Today I feel annoyed and although I don’t like feeling this way and feel like I have no right to feel annoyed I accept my emotions for what they are and I know it will pass.  I also know that I am hormonal…hahaha.