Day 247 Question 247:
Do you believe in past lives and an afterlife?
Do you ever spend time thinking about life outside of this one that we know? I think about stuff like that all of the time. I think about where my journey in this life has taken me and I do believe that there was a life I lived before that plays such a large part in this life. I used to joke around and say that I was being punished in this life for all of the bad things I did in my past life. I don’t truly believe that though. I sometimes build these stories in my head and I know no truth of them but I sometimes wonder. I wonder if in my past life if I had a great love….a love so intense and passionate that it put all other things to shame. I wonder if that is why my love life in this life is nonexistent and just fizzles out before it even begins. I am not complaining about this, I just sometimes wonder about a life before this how it affects my life now. Life is this great cycle so far outside of our spectrum….so far outside of our understanding and perception. I believe life is eternal and a continual cycle and we are supposed to live all of these separate lives in order to see the world through different eyes. I sometimes wonder if my dreams that come to me at night are part of a life that I have no recollection of….at least no recollection when I am conscious.
When it comes to questions like these I do not have scientific answers or answers based on teachings of the Bible or any teachings of spiritual leaders. My answers come from within because through all of the things that I question, I choose to believe that there is always a before and after. I am unable to believe that this life is all that there is. There is far too much in the world and in human nature to learn to only be given a small number of years to experience what we like to call life. I think our feelings and thoughts are almost instinctual. Yes, I do believe we are swayed to believe certain things that are taught to us but I believe there is something that draws us to believe what we do and to be who we are. I am like no one else in my family. I am liberal and independent and one to push the envelope while everyone else falls more on the conservative side. I witnessed a conservative life for as long as I can remember but it never felt natural to me. I sometimes find that odd. These are the times I question what and how I was before I became a part of this life….before I was conceived.
If one is to believe in a previous life than I believe it is instinctual to believe in an afterlife as well. I don’t know who or what determines these two lives outside of this one that we currently know…maybe there is a higher power. I don’t see angels and clouds and pearly gates in an afterlife. I see a new life forming…a new life far outside of the life we just lived. This life could be significantly better or tragically worse….that is something I am completely unsure of. I am kind of babbling because putting what I feel into words is not always easy. I sometimes think there are no words to explain the surges of feelings and emotions that sometimes travel throughout me. I believe in a previous and an afterlife because it seems like a natural cycle of life. I am unsure why our lives have time limits and if these previous and afterlives do exist, I am unsure why we are not meant to remember any of our past lives.