Day 231 Question 231:
What’s the best advice you have ever given yourself?
Today is Sunday. One of those days where I either spend the day lazily watching movies and enjoying the comfort of my bed or getting errands taken care of. I have done a little bit of both. I slept in this morning with wild dreams running through my brain (as usual) but when I finally decided to get up I accomplished quite a bit. I have to work at 4 so I guess it is good that I finally got out of lazy mode. :0)
On Friday I was working at the restaurant and we weren’t too terribly busy. I was talking to our sushi chef (who is from Indonesia) and I told him that I meditated twice a day. The reason I told him this is because he told me that I was always happy. I am not always happy. I do have my moments but I am at peace. My life is calm. I explained to him that my meditations allowed my mind and body to relax and to slow down. I am able to dive deeper into my consciousness and the things that used to bother me for hours and days and weeks on end would no longer stay with me. There is a great language barrier between the sushi chef and myself but as I spoke I knew he understood. He wanted to know more. I told him that a lot of inner peace comes from reminding yourself of all of the good in life. It is far too easy to insult yourself or beat yourself up for every little thing but it takes great strength to believe in your own goodness but once you do you see life so very differently. Once you start seeing and truly understanding your own beauty and your own purpose you are able to see the beauty in life. You always strive to do better and strive to help others better their lives.
Through this meditation I have learned so much about who I am as a person. The superficial things no longer seem to hold any significance in my life. The best advice I have given myself since starting this journey is to stop listening to those inner demons. Those inner demons are simply my ego trying to take control. I am not my ego. I am not a person filled with self-loathing. I gave myself the advice to accept my emotions, my feelings and my thoughts for what they are and to stop detesting myself for those things. A wide array of feelings and thoughts is the nature of the beast called life. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I don’t know the reason and I may never know the reason but something inside of me believes there is a path for each one of us. We experience what we do to test our strength and our convictions. Unfortunately some people aren’t able to pass the test….at least they believe they aren’t able to. Finding yourself is this wonderful journey but along with it comes a lot of pain and heartache and these things are very hard to accept. For a majority of my life I was unable to accept those things. I do not like experiencing these things now but now that I realize that they are part of me and they are the lessons and tests in life that I need I accept them…these things have strengthened me in a way that I never thought possible.