Day 119 Question 119

Day 119 Question 119:

Who is someone in your life that has been a big source of inspiration?

In the last few months I have changed my entire life around.  I exercise regularly.  I dive into books and research topics that I love.  I debate with people (friendly debates of course) about issues that are important to me.  I meditate twice every single day.  I write every single day…which is a gift because it allows me to get all of my emotions out…in a constructive manner.  I have found that in my words and in my desires that I have found a place of much needed peace.  I took my parents out to dinner the other night and when we were finished we went back to their house to visit for a while.  My dad was in the other room watching Fox news (which is no surprise if you knew my dad) and my mom and I sat in the family room just chit chatting back and forth.  She said to me that she has seen a change.  She noticed that I am no longer angry.  Her timing of telling me that was so surreal because that same day while driving to their house before dinner I thought to myself how less angry I was nowadays.  My parents were always my punching bag (not literally of course) because I had all of this built up self-loathing and resentment toward things that in the end I had complete control of.  As we sat there talking I could feel the love and the understanding just deflecting from each one of us.

My meditation and my lifestyle changes play a huge part in the person I have become.  I told my mom the other day that I love the person I have become and for the first time ever I mean it.  I love my passion, my determination and my drive.  I have moments of weakness and self-doubt but they no longer control me.

During this time of change, I have been able to make some new friends.  I filtered out those that were not positive in my life (those that exuded nothing but negativity) and I welcomed in new people that have challenged me and have driven me to work harder than I ever have.  I have one friend in particular that I must mention.  Let me back up though and tell you that this friend of mine has two female roommates that I have also formed close friendships with.  I feel lucky to know all of them because they are all so different but they all stay positive even if things aren’t always going quite right.  I love that about all of them.  My friend May is the one that I need to mention.  Out of the three roommates, she is the one I see the least because she is nonstop on the go.  She is pursuing her Bachelor’s Degree, working at a bike shop and she just started training to be a beach lifeguard.  Let’s just say she stays really busy….and saying that is an understatement.

May is 22 years old.  I am 33.  A lot of people would think that an age gap like that would mean that we share no common ground.  May is wise beyond her years though and her dedication to so many things draws people to her.  In all of my life I am not sure if I have met someone with as much determination as my friend May has.  May has competed in several triathalons (and winning has happened many times) and she is training to do a HUGE Iron-Man competition.  She rides her bike way over 100 miles per week and dedicates her every Sunday to training which includes running a whole lot of miles, biking even more miles than that and swimming laps until she is ready to drown.  While doing all of this, and even some days I am sure she is absolutely exhausted and cannot push herself anymore, she does it with a smile and she does it with love in her heart.

I met May through my roommate because they work at the bike shop together.  We would see each other in passing but nothing ever really became of it for the first few months.  I went through a break up in late October and after spending a little time by myself I knew that I needed to get out and just push myself.  I got myself back into the gym.  I started eating healthier.  I not only researched Transcendental Meditation but I took the entire course (and couldn’t be happier that I did) and I made myself get out and start being around more people.  I contacted May and her and her roommates invited me over for a Girls Night Dinner.  We had an absolute blast and I saw such great qualities in all three girls but the qualities that stood out in May were this aura of kindness and non-judgment.  May ALWAYS sees the good in people and gives people the benefit of the doubt.  Some people may see that as being naïve but I admire it because she chooses to not give in to hateful spewing and dislike of people.  I admit that sometimes I do that and regret it after it is all said and done.  May has made me more aware of myself when I do this and I love that even when the most annoying person is around her she is going to smile and be nice.  She knows there is no benefit in being a bitch.

I wanted to write about May because I wanted her to know that she really does inspire me and I wanted to thank her for coming into my life.  For me life has been this long learning process and there have been some bumps in the road and I still have things to figure out…through any and all of that May has always been a great friend.  Her spirit is so inviting to everyone.  I know she will be VERY successful in life because she does not give up…if she wants something she will get it.  Having someone like this in my life is just what I needed.  Is there someone in your life that has served as a source of inspiration/motivation/determination?

“Nothing can stop the man/woman with the right mental attitude from achieving his/her goal; nothing on earth can help the man/woman with the wrong mental attitude.” -Thomas Jefferson

“The spirit, the will to win, and the will to excel are the things that endure. These qualities are so much more important than the events that occur.” Vince Lombardi

“The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person’s determination.” Tommy Lasorda

“The longer I live, the more I am certain that the great difference between the great and the insignificant, its energy – invincible determination – a purpose once fixed, and then death or victory.” Sir Thomas Fowell Buxton

“Obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.” Michael Jordan




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4 Responses to Day 119 Question 119

  1. Ana Ruddy says:

    This came at the perfect time. Thank you, this has inspired me to reevaluate relationships and friendships…and myself.

  2. adauphin04 says:

    I identify with the part about you being less angry, weeding out negativity in your life and liking/loving yourself more and more. I went through something like that when I came out about 6-7 years ago. A weight was lifted from me. I began smiling more. I quit smoking and started taking care of myself via eating better (I’m diabetic) and I’m starting to walk for exercise. This time in my life is so uplifting. I’m writing more. It’s an amazing thing when your life comes from love of self! Thanks for sharing this. Like Ana Ruddy says, it came at a perfect time. It is making me love the process even more and look forward to more positive things to come.

  3. sexilybig says:

    I love reading your blog, each day is a new surprise and a new journey. Please keep writing 😀

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